When I placed my heart in his hands, I expected him to hold it in the highest regard. I expected him to care for it like he would his own, but what if he did? What if he did care for my heart as if it was his own, and that is why he broke it?
After reflecting on a heartbreak I blamed someone else for, two years later I stand here taking full responsibility for my role. I did it. I broke my own heart by my own failure to see that he did not have the capacity to give me security, because of his deeply rooted insecurities. I failed to see that he did not have the capacity to give me commitment because he couldn’t commit to a career path. I failed to see that he did not have the capacity to love me because he simply did not love himself. I failed to measure his capacity for the expectations that I had attached when I placed my heart so gently in his hands. This does not mean that I am excusing him from his actions. This just means that I am taking responsibility for my own.
Most heartbreaks are caused by expectations that we subconsciously project onto another person who never showed their capability to meet them.
Remember to measure the capacity of someone else’s hands to fulfill the expectations of your heart before you give it away. It’s unrealistic to expect a love as deep as the oceans to come from a river.
“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” Proverbs 4:23
